David February 5, 2021
David has some kind of cancer. I don't even know. Like gall bladder, biliary whatever. He's about to have a biopsy, today, Friday, after being at Dana Farber since Sunday. What we've learned is that the cancer isn't so much in the liver as it is in the gall bladder. And what we've learned even without the biopsy is that it's not curable. Treatable, but not curable. And the little I see when I'm brave enough to go online is that who really cares because he is going to die soon. So I guess what I do care is that any treatment gives him some quality of life. I have never felt so sad or so lost or so mad. And I know this is probably typical. Just writing it down. Maybe the girls will read it someday. Maybe it will help me while I wait to get to the place where I'm better about things- that happens supposedly, and I believe it must. How do you get better though when you know the person who is dying doesn't want to die either. That's one o